Constriction (A Ramble of Sorts)

Why is it that at the time I find my creativity and artistry, my schoolwork gets in the way?  I feel like I should be enjoying what I do.  I am not. I miss being able to take pictures every day, coming home, and editing them.  I want this so badly.  I want that back.

Maybe this is what I am supposed to do.  When I am deprived of the things I love most, I become desperate to find some way to allow them back into my life.  Is it that I cannot express my creativity?  Do I have no outlet?  I need some way to let this out.

It is only my sophomore year, and I am always becoming restricted to do the things I love to do most.  If this continues, I don't know what I am going to do.  I need to do what I am passionate about.  Sitting in classes that have nothing to do with anything, needing to take classes, and stressing over things that don't matter is getting upsetting.  I belong in the arts.  I need to take pictures, make music, and help others for the rest of my life.  I need my art back.

All I have time for is stress and panic.   If this continues, who knows what the future has in store for me.